Waiting...

So, now I wait. A whole lot of waiting. This I think is the hardest part of it all. Waiting for the news, good or bad. I hate it. You should be able to take a test the day after you stop ovulating. Or maybe some clues to give it away. Good ones though, although I would take just about anything these days. There are days when I just think, "I wish I was puking right now." I never thought I was ask to puke, but at least then I would know. I get to test again on January 30th. Thats a long time away, in TTC (trying to concieve) days it's 365... But it will be all worth it if it is possitive.

I feel like everyone around me is either pregnant or talking about it. It used to make me feel awful, but now I have been able to be happy for the person. It took a lot of growing on my part I think I finally have it down. I have my moments but I can make it through it. What's interesting about it, even the people on TV are getting pregnant. I was watching Gilmore Girls and on one of my hard days Suki anounces that she is pregnant, Oh man, did I cry. I called Anthony and he thought something serious was wrong because he couldn't understand a word I said. I laugh about it now...

I can't wait to be pregnant! I will be too... sooner or later.

Not Puking but Still Trying...